~~ Bloody Hell ~~

Here's how it might end....!!

She's too far,
doesn't feel anything like that,
Nothing reaches across,
nothing touches her heart.

none of what I say matters,
she has her mind set
everything is trivial,
wouldn't have mattered to her even if we had never met

I know am not worth it,
that am not the one,
It is friendship,
just friendship and nothing else.

It's so dumb of me,
to have taken it on the other bend.
It had to come to halt,
it had to an end.

Should have got it earlier,
should have understood her feelings
but what the hell,
am only a bloody human.

I dared to ask for too much,
too much for my stature
I dared to dream of having her by my side,
which had brought me on this juncture

now that I know whats real and whats not,
still i cant forget her.
she might have not felt anything,
but I have gone through the whole whirlpool.

those whistling winds,
are now gusts of air,
all that has happened to me,
is just not fair

Let me take the break,
let me move on,
God help me please,
Cos somehow I too have to live on..

~'~Quiet as Morgue~'~

Dreams are all I have,
buried deep in my heart,
shrouded under the practicality of life,
still the ember glows bright

am in my own world,
she's living her life,
why does it still hurt,
why is that wound still rife

blatant yelling of my heart,
keeps calling her name,
reminding me of the chances,
recalling the times when I shouldn’t have been lame

I was quiet,
quiet as morgue,
didnt really knew,
that i was making a big mistake

She was the one,
personification of all my wishes & desires,
glittering with the innocence of a kid,
those beautiful green eyes…

that openess, that frankness,
that noncommittal nature,
she was a free spirit,
dancing,gyrating to the tunes played by HIM

a million dollar smile,
that glowing face,
as if there was an aura,
and an astonishing grace

that blabber of hers,
which was all important for me,
that chuckle on her face,
which would kill all tensions and set me free

Wish I would have uttered those words,
words of faith and love,
but now time is past me,
and I hate myself for calling it a crush..

Cant speak it out loud, say it meekly!

It's not the person who chooses the thoughts that come to his mind indeed it's the thought which chooses a particular person to manifest itself. Remember people say, I lost control over my thoughts. Actually you never control them.

So here's just another thought that happened to tread through my mind on its nomadic odyssey...

Sometimes you just can't say what you are thinking, what you feel and believe in. You would be talking to the other person, someone whom you wouldn't want to tell lie, or rather you just cannot tell a lie at all. But bloddy hell, I got a say it somehow.

So do one thing, say it but with a smile which would make her feel as if you are joking or lying. But you know you ain't lying. So you purged off that thought now but the other person just doesn't take it as real. You poured out your heart and she takes it as a joke (and doesn't get hurt)

When you can't speak it out loud, say it meekly with a credible smile!!

~~Crushed~~

May be its just another crush,
May be just another rush
May be a gush of feelings,
Making me as fragile as seedlings

She came and went across,
painted in the white robe of innocence like a dove
Looking into her eyes I learnt,
Sometimes u have to force yourself to look elsewhere lest u'll fall in love....

ma God, I wasnt good enough,
to fight that beautiful demigoddess
those cherubic green eyes,
I just kept flowing into the depth of the abyss.

She did came late,
I just kept gazing at the road’s bend
If I can have a glimpse of her angelic face,
Then am ready to wait for this world to end

All anguish, all pain,
All agony lies in vain,
None of them can break me,
Cos her voice purges off all the strain.

Love is all I need,
And love is what she can't bless me with.
Cos I am with her,
But she has already taken a tread

Never had the grit to ask for,
The moments of her life that I wanted to partake.
Never had the force to break,
The pervasive barrier of faith.

I am not content with what I have,
Want her to be more than my friend
But just can't speak that out
Cos I fear the loss of relation that's so grand..

Will stay by her side,
Whatever comes and goes,
As friend, as a dear one,
Will fight all of her foes.....!!

stay happy my dear friend :) :) :)