Wednesday, December 30, 2009

1 0 1 0 0 1 - The high's & low's of 2009

2009 began with a blog post and so, should definitely end with another one. :) It's the last day of the year and I am as invigorated as I was when it began.

Every year has its own ups and downs, if it doesn't then either you are complacent or dead. Life can never stick to any one mode, it keeps switching on & off. The ON period should be en-cashed right away while the OFF period provides the path for restructuring your thoughts. I tried my level best to do both, but will definitely better myself in 2k10.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

At 2 in the night!!!

I don't know what to say,
I don't how I start,
Cos there's a mark,
and it's just not ready to part....

....!!!

So, the night is at its peak, it's 2 AM and I just sat to write some poetry but I can't compose it.I feel so shallow as if there's no feeling. I don't know if it's a positive sign or a bad omen. Am split into two beings right here, one, is an awesome optimist while the other is an awful pessimist. One says it's going to bring only good while the other just calls me a darn looser. What I hear is either the peace in silence or a shrill of the quiet. Is this numbness of my senses or the chaos inherent in the situation that's making everything unperceivable? Why do I have all questions in my mind but no answers to gratify the curiosity? There's either nothing to think about or it's an excess of mentations.

A Tryst with the Gunpowder

Guns, Gunpowder, Pistols, Rifles, Bullets…

What comes to your mind after hearing these words? Answers to this simple question can be as varied as the options of toppings on a pizza, but they’ll be mainly spread across three categories. One will be of the out right realistic, pragmatic people. The juggle in their mind will take a detour towards either terrorism or military crack downs. These words, for them, are synonymous to oppression or a revolution, to a war or to the menace caused by rowdy hooligans in otherwise peaceful cities. While some would link these words to the Kashmir fight and for others these words will invoke a sense of hatred. The second category would be of the fun loving, chirping pleasure seekers. They like to subdue their rational, left brain while firing up its right, imaginative part. The drift of their minds will take them to the movies where actors wield their guns in as glamorous way as possible. The kids get impressed and parents placate them by buying some fake replicas which can send out similar sound waves as were in the movie. And then there’s another small group of people who would think about sports. Yeah right! Shooting sports.

Indian policies and laws are not that favorable towards providing shooting ammo to the bourgeois. That’s the reason why many of us are bereaved from this extremely exiting sport. However, I got an opportunity take a shot on this, literally, and I followed the age old tenet that opportunities should be seized as they come.

On a fine Saturday in August we, The Five Musketeers (the more the merrier), decided to fully utilize our weekend. The sky was haphazardly patched with clouds. The sun, beaming with all of its force, was able to find a vent between the patches sometimes. We had a decent breakfast and were set for almost an hour long drive from Dublin (Suburb of Columbus) to Delaware. The journey, as always, was full of fun, with a lot gibber and jokes. After draining all our brains through the weekdays and the gibber seemed such relief. The landscape around the roads was pretty much like that in India. The fields of crops were spread across; felt as if we had taken a road towards some village of Punjab. The only difference was that the crop here was corn and would be wheat or sugarcane back at home.

Our friend from Accenture (US), Harmandeep Sran, was our guide. Basically he follows shooting sports and is himself a pretty good shooter (not a sniper though, just kidding). He had brought with him the arsenal which included 4 guns i.e. a Mosin–Nagant, bolt action Russian riffle used in Second World War, a Savage 17 hmr riffle with AccuTrigger, a Reminton shotgun and the Taurus 38 special revolver. As we were nearing the Delaware shooting range, we took a halt at a local ammunition purchase shop where we got ourselves the license for shooting, the clays (for clay shooting) and a hell lot of bullets. It was quite amazing to see how easy it was to purchase the ammo and to get the license for shooting in US.

As we reached the shooting range, we decided to go for the 100 m rifle shooting first followed by the revolver shots and then, the most glamorous clay shooting. We called for a cease fire and placed our target. Our guide laid down big black boxes and we took out the rifles. The feeling of holding the rifle first time in my hands was awesome. First we organized the Savage rifle and loaded the magazine with bullets. And then came the time, when I fired my first shot. Initially I was a little nervous but after the first shot I felt a sense of achievement, yeah it’s not an achievement as such but who can explain the ramblings of a human brain completely. Then we all took our shots of five bullets, technically in a round robin fashion(haha).

The advanced rifles pose lesser recoil, so our Savage rifle was a cream pie but Mosin–Nagant was a dry nut, hard to crack but so delicious inside. The first shot gave a jar to my shoulder, as if telling me – son, this isn’t a cream pie, brace up to handle me! We did got up to it pretty well though.

After having tried our hands at the rifles, the next stop was the revolver. The revolvers are good for short distance only, so our targets were closer, but on the same time the recoil of a revolver is pretty strong; it makes your hand move up. To tell you the truth, out of the five initial shots I managed to hit the target just once and that too on the third circle from the center.

As is the case with all shows, the most famous & glamorous actors/actresses come to stage in the end, similar was the case here. Our next gun was loaded with bling, the Remington Shotgun. Many of us would have seen our actors flashing their sawed off shotguns, also know as lupara. The shotgun is used for clay shoot where the target is moving. The targets are the discs made of clay which are thrown in the air by a clay shooting device or manually. The five of us consumed around 150 clays and similar number of bullets. We began with not being able to shoot even one of the three clays thrown in the air but ended up pretty strong. On the final shots of mine, I did a hattrick.

The range closed down at fifteen to five and we all headed back to our place. And while I was lying on my bed I decreed that this, till date, has been the most enjoyable thing that I’ve done in my life.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Just something!!

You make me laugh,
you make me weep,
I live for you,
every day & every week.

You make the person that I am,
you are the reason for my being,
you didn't gave me birth,
but you do form the reason for my rebirth.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

I or You??

I was justing sitting on a couch, surfing the net, nothing much. Had an invigorating, instigating chat with a friend, which lead me into a whole process of revisiting past few years of my life, of how I wanted them to be and of how they actually were. It was quite shocking to get face to face with the irony that I was living. This retrospection made me feel that there's no 'I' or 'me' in me, its all 'you' or 'we' and its leading everything in the wrong way...!! I need to focus on me, develop 'ME' in myself. Taking good qualities from others is good but you need to be yourself and no a motley of assortments of a lot of "you"s.

The time has come for me to chop off the you connection (to some level) and start working on myself, of making myself something more that just someone. Growth is either now or never. Go, get on a kill!!

MISSION STARTS TODAY!! Just keep it up!!..

Friday, June 19, 2009

I live alone...!!












I live alone,
cant tell how lonely I feel,
cant hold your hand anymore,
cant find a medicine which can heal..

I live alone,
loading my pockets but emptying my heart.
trying to deal with it,
but loosing out every time.

I live alone,
Waiting for a ping, a call,
My boat is in the middle of the sea,
but there is no rudder to pull

I live alone,
there's a lot to fight for,
still my hands don't rise up
cos there's no-one I can die for

I live alone,
& I decide my being.
but is that enough,
to be happy and to win

I live alone,
am strong to cope up with it,
but there is always a weak moment,
when u need a fall back to boost that grit..

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Facades blown out....








When insecurities mount,
when a fear of loosing takes on,
The grip of harsh realities,
criples you by forcing all boundations

When the squelching tenets of life,
the de facto perspective of the world,
Kills all emotions within you,
and devastates your very being.

When all maps are wrong,
When all perceptions are denounced,
you are all broken,
with not a single hand to hold.

When you start expecting,
when you start asking for more,
but all false facades blow out,
the truth makes you seethe with rage

When you know you are wrong,
when you know its your fault,
but still you can't act,
you cannot absolve.

When every second moment you think of her,
When you start understanding her oddities,
you can gauge everything before she utters a word,
and you know that she'll say that its not wht she feels.

when your heart beats the blood tears in your veins
and When you know you love her,
and still you fear saying it,
for you know what lies before.

When your nights are full of tears,
when the mirror reflects the red eyes,
and still you stand still in front of it,
wash your face and do nothing.

Thats when you realise,
you knew this was coming,
you knew it was the truth of your life,
and that weeping is worth nothing.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Book Review : The Secret!


Background

The Secret began as a DVD. Rhonda Byrne had faced a tumultuous time in life and came out of it only after she learned The Secret, from a hundred year old book gifted to her by her daughter. In gratitude she created a film to share this knowledge and after its remarkable success she created a book by the same name.

What is The Secret?

The Secret, written by Rhonda Byrne, is a book which shows you ways of bringing, rather attracting whatever you want into your life. It unveils the power of your true self and tells you what you are capable of, gives practical examples of using The Secret, and then lets you explore your own ways of implementing it in your life.

The book preaches the law of attraction, and quite opposite to our normal understanding and belief that “opposites attract”, this law of attraction claims that like attracts like. The law states that people experience logical manifestations of their predominant thoughts, feelings and words. Your thoughts have all the power to turn you to riches from rags or vice-versa. Negative thoughts will bring about negative manifestations and positive thoughts will lead to positive manifestations. The theory is very simple and absolute, with no exceptions. Your thoughts turn in things or situations. You are the most powerful being, the most potent person to bring to your life things you want by just thinking about them. You make your own life, your own destiny.

The law of attraction works on three steps:
1. Know what you want and ask the universe for it.
2. Feel and behave as if the object you asked for is on its way
3. Be open to receiving it.

All of us have heard from Paulo Coelho in The Alchemist that “when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true”. The Secret moves one step further to explain you how to get the whole universe conspire to get your wishes. It says that you create your universe with your thoughts, so know what you want; ask the universe for it without even one speck of pessimism. The universe is abundant, an unlimited supply and you can tap into it through your thoughts, your feelings.

Through the book, the author presents different ways of applying The Secret for getting what you want, be it money, a healthy body, a fulfilling relationship or a perfect partner. It talks about becoming the master of your thought process, of guiding your mind to think about what you want. You might wish to stick a check worth a million on your cupboard if you want money or you might create space in your lifestyle for the special someone you wish to have in your life.

The author leaves you with yourself to decide what you wish to do with the knowledge of the Secret because its your destiny that you are making and You are right in what you decide.

My thoughts on the book:


The Secret lets you know that you are the creator and makes you believe that you can achieve what you wish by being happy and full of gratitude. But there are various weak points of the strategy:

1)Author warns about negative thoughts, so to be healthy you shouldn’t hear the pains of any other person who is unhealthy, as that your thoughts might digress. This is quite a selfish act.

2)The book says that whatever happens to you is what you brought to your life through conscious or unconscious thoughts. But this cannot explain an event of mass killing, riots or massacre. How can so many people have similar thoughts to attract the incident into their lives?

3)The Secret doesn’t say anything about a situation where multiple people ask for the same thing or more strikingly, if two people desire opposite things.

The Secret is definitely a good read for whoever has lost confidence in himself and is feeling grossly dejected but it cannot be applied to all phases of your life.

Reviewed by Charanjeet Singh

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Take the pen & Write your destiny!!

Its the new day,
A new begining,
a new end,
to whatever has been happening.

Open your eyes,
to the bright sun.
waiting for you outside,
are a lot of challenges to be won.

Efface the memories,
wipe off the board.
Take a fresh sheet,
and begin scribling the new word.

The word of dreams,
the word of happiness,
the word of growth,
which postulates a lot maddness.

Maddness everywhere,
spread throughout the world.
Everyone fighting to achieve,
trying to fit in the frame that he built.

isnt this fight that keeps you alive?
isnt this what breaks the monotony?
isnt this what fetches you your dreams?
isnt this the destiny of all?

So, just take the pen and write your Destiny..